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December 31st, 2009 | Category: Uncategorized | Enter your password to view comments

2009 can officially kiss my ass!

Yes indeed. 2009 came in like a lion, left like a lion. It’s been a real fucking shithole of the year. No, this is not a family friendly blog :P

This has been a shitty year. Kids pointing guns and waving machetes at me at a job I left my home and drove 1200 kms for. My car got into an accident without me in it. (Accident #1)

Then, my boyfriend decided to dump me, while I was 1200kms away and he didn’t really tell me. Instead, he started boinking a Bosnian. And then another girl. And another. And, then back to the second one. And then, ugh, I don’t know how many others. I quit my job when the kids are allowed back in class. I come “home” and try to regroup and get myself sorted.

Then, temporary homelessness and then moving my stuff to storage. Then that stuff gets damaged. And then, my dysFUNctional family Christmas. And then Car Accident #2.

NONE of my car accidents, have ever been my fault. I am a good driver. Others? Not so good drivers.

I’m sore. I’m achy. My car is totaled. And I’ll probably get a shitty insurance settlement for less than my car is worth. I spent a lot of money on that car. $35000 in the end. And I’ll be lucky to get $10 000 for it.

So, officially? This year SUCKS.

But, the good things? I got rid of an asshole boyfriend who said I was too fat. I lost 50 pounds and I’m joining the army. I got in an accident and while I am sore as shit, neither my brother nor I have endured career-ending injuries.

God is good. But God? Seriously? Can you give me a damn break?

Thanks!






December 28th, 2009 | Category: Uncategorized | Comments (1)

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December 26th, 2009 | Category: Uncategorized | Enter your password to view comments

Thank God…

FINALLY. I’m under 220.

Weight this morning? 219.6. I’ll take it!


Officially half way to my goal!

December 24th, 2009 | Category: Uncategorized | Comments (2)

Insomnia, my old friend…

I wouldn’t actually call what I’m going through insomnia but rather, a different schedule than everyone else right now. I enjoy my late nights when I can just relax without having people and sounds around… but the problem is, you end up waking up early, because of the sounds of having others around. So, you end up tired and a bit cranky and it turns out eventually to be 2:30 am and you’re still awake and tired but can’t sleep.

I need to get into a better schedule this upcoming year. I also wished I could afford a place on my own right now. But, I can’t. This is the crappy hand I’m dealt and I just need to well… deal with it! Grrrr….  I wish things could most faster but at the same time, not.  I’m not ready yet physically for the army. Mentallly? BRING IT ON. But… physically? Not yet.

I need to remind myself more often, to workout longer… workout harder… workout more frequently…. that I will get to where I need to be faster, so that I can get this GOING ON.

I also need a hug tonight :(

My cat will need to do I guess… and hope he doesn’t fang me. He’s in that kind of mood tonight. *sigh*

I promise soon, things will turn out. My entries will be more positive. Life will be good again. Sometimes you have to go through these shitty thigns, in order for that to happen! Stay strong, stay positive….. I have to remember that!

Man. I just want to cry. I haven’t had a good cry in a while. Three… two… one… *tears falling down the cheek*

December 24th, 2009 | Category: Uncategorized | Comments (2)

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