September 7, 2009 – Not giving up

September 7th, 2009

Today has been one of the crappiest days ever. But I turned it around. I’m grateful for the ability to look at an event or subject from two different angles and to realise things are never as bad as they may appear. I’m not giving up and I won’t let myself get down.

September 6, 2009 – Laughter

September 7th, 2009

Today I was grateful for laughter. I had some good laughs and that’s all I could ask for on a day like today.

September 5, 2009 – Gratitude & Compliments

September 6th, 2009

Today I made every attempt to reach out and be grateful for what I have… awesome friends, family, food and even my pets. I even tried to be grateful for whatever life lessons it is I am supposed to be learning from my past relationship. But, perhaps most of the lessons are to be taken from the after effects of the relationship and not so much from the actual relationship itself. Interesting.

And secondly, today I am having to learn to how to accept compliments. Am I beautiful? Am I a nice person? Do I have a good heart? People tell me these things but I find it hard to believe… and even harder to accept.

While it’s great to not waste a single day, it’s even greater to NOT waste a single minute… and those are the precious “moments” people talk about. People don’t always look back and say, “Remember that day when someone did such and such for me and it changed my whole life?” Rather, it’s a… “Remember that time when someone did such and such…” They are more specific… more alluding to an actual MOMENT… an instant. A minute.

Momentous.

September 4, 2009 – Seeking joy through turbulence

September 5th, 2009

Today was interesting in that I found out my ex of 6 years proposed to a woman he’s only known for 3 months. And you know what? I honest-to-God, don’t care.  I took the high road, all the way.

In fact, today I am incredibly optimistic! I was spared from a horrible marriage and am absolutely blessed!

Today I found out I’m *this* close to achieving my goal of joining the army.

Today I broke a personal record with my running… and I’m proud of my body being able to do what it does when it’s in such a bad shape. My purpose today is to continue with working my body, making it do things no one expects…

Today was a good day! I had much laughter today amid a time of turbulence. It was a good day.

September 3, 2009 – A Purpose Driven Life

September 5th, 2009

Today I floated around the pool for several hours. Aside from the sunburn I received, I had some very awesome thoughts. Namely, to stop hiding from life. And to live it to the fullest. And to stop waiting for life to happen.

Besides, there’s plenty of time for rest when you’re dead!

Today was the day I had the epiphany. And, I intend on making every single day of my life from this point on, Purpose Driven.

2190 days…

September 5th, 2009

After a recent break-up of a relationship that lasted 2190 days –  that’s six years for those who suck at multiplication like myself — I realised that I wasted way too much time in my life. Much of my relationship I spent in “waiting mode”. Waiting for him to make choices, to make decisions, to come back from tour of duty, to propose, to marriage dates, to having children. It felt horrible, I can’t tell you.

I’m happy we are broken up. I’m happy I didn’t marry someone like him. I’m happy that I have learned this when I’m 31 and still young enough to have an awesome life.

I’m tired of missing out on the awesome things. I refuse to allow another single day to go to ‘waste’.  I am now living the Purpose Driven Life.  And, this blog’s purpose is to document it… and encourage others to do the same.

The format will be pretty easy… short, sweet, to the point. I will back-date it two days (since I changed my thinking) to give some examples.

Life is gonna get better folks! I will never rely on someone again for my happiness. This is MY responsibility.